Triggers

triggers
uncover your heart wound
barely covered by time
like that
I am swept out to the darkest depths of my grief
tears flow relentlessly
where only days ago I thought they were dried up
Losing you is still the most painful experience I have and I can have it over and over again
Breathe
Breathe
I keep taking one breath after another, calming myself to live without you
just as I have for sixteen months
and will for the rest of my life

Bee Houghton

When I was young the words came freely to me, they would arrive spontaneously and preformed, I only had to write them down…..
Now I have to work hard to draw them out, I have to seek them out of the jumble of nothing and everything… They rarely come to me of their own accord anymore and even less often am I able to record them before they pass on by…….

Bee Houghton